I had a difficult time when I gave birth to my son in 2018.
He was a calm bright baby, but I found it difficult to like him at all. When I was having a bad day, I started to blame a lot of people and my temper was just out of controlled.
I thought about finding professional help. That was until I got back into ceramic .
When I was a teenager, I did ceramic regularly and it helped me cope with anxiety and mood swing.
So I thought, maybe a few hours away from home would help.
So it started to be a regular base habit, throwing, trimming, glazing .
And I realized every time I threw a bunch of stuff and got back home, I see how my children are changed, even the air I breathe feels like it’s been changed.
I wasn’t fully aware how Ceramic practice affected me until 2020. UK announced lock down, I had no access to my Ceramic studio, unfortunately I got depressed again.
I was wondering, “Why ?” Why do I want to go to ceramic so badly?
I wasn’t sure how to explain that until I watched this video :
Ruwen Huang is a spiritual coach I followed since UK’s first lockdown in March 2020. She explained how meditation helps you connect to your soul and body. She also suggested that by doing activities you prefer to do and concentrate on what you do, will help to connect to your soul as well.
Thorwing on the wheel is that activity I prefer to do.
For me, the quietness and concentration is like being in a soul healing realm.
I believe that when potters throw, they concentrate on their breath, looking at the center of the clay, it makes their mind so centered.
And my mind is centered now.
Next research: Ceramicist touch materials from ground and how it affect our character?